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holding on..

Mon, 13 Oct 2008 20:34:21 GMT

i miss home..
i miss my family..
i miss us 4 just going out for movies and having dinner together..
i miss you che, i miss you daddy,i miss you mummy..
looking through the pictures we have, just bring laughter and tears...
wondering when can the 4 of us ever be together again..

Lord, i pray that you will keep my family together
i pray too Lord that you will help my mum especially to be strong and may both my parents rely on your strength.
same goes to my sister and i.
i pray that we will re-unite soon.
thank you Lord for the family that i have. it may not be a perfect one but i believe we ARE perfect for one another.

ps: i miss you too my best friend and my church members..wish it could be like last time..

Propriety in worship

Fri, 05 Sep 2008 12:55:01 GMT

        Follow my example, as I follow the example of Christ.
       I praise you for remembering me in everything and for holding to the teachings, just as I passed them on to you.
       Now I want you to realize that the head of every man is Christ, and the head of the woman is man, and the head of Christ is God.
       Every man who prays or prophesies with his head covered dishonors his head. And every woman who prays or prophesies with her head uncovered dishonors her head - it is just as though her head were shaved.
       If a woman does not cover her head, she should have her hair cut off; and if it is a disgrace for a woman to have her hair cut or shaved off, she should cover her head.
       A man ought not to cover his head, since he is the image and glory of God; but the woman is the glory of man.
       For man did not come from woman, but woman from man;
       neither was man created for woman, but woman for man.
       For this reason, and because of the angels, the woman ought to have a sign of authority on her head.

                                                                                                                                   1Corinthians 11:1-10

These verses alone speaks for itself. It is not the word of man but the word of God. It is whether we choose to obey his commands. John 14:15: "If you love me, you will obey what I command.
If we say we love God and want to follow his footsteps yet are not able to obey whatever he asks us to do, are we not just speaking in vain? It is very important indeed to remember God's teaching and not the teaching of man. If we say that it's the modern age now and it doesn't matter if we don't wear a veil so long as we go to church and worship God from our hearts, God see our hearts, etc...we're wrong. Wearing a veil is part of our act of obedience and worship towards God.

forgive me..

Mon, 25 Feb 2008 15:04:53 GMT

the things we go through in life..
the lyrics prob explains what i'm feeling or am going through right now..
just sucks..
why do we have to make so many decisions in life?
not knowing if we're making the right ones..
lord speak..

Father, I’m going through some heavy things
It seems like this world ain’t getting any better
The more we try to get closer to You
The farther we run from Your throne

I’ve spent so many nights wonderin’ when will it end
When will the day come when happiness begins
I’m running the race but it seems too hard to win
I’m sick of mourning my stomach is throwing up in the morning

I’m calling for help and watching it melt away
My heart’s been put on display and put away
In many ways, many times I told myself it was ok
And anger was the price that was paid
While these faded dreams just screamed to bring them home

The burden was too heavy I kept running from the throne
I can’t take it any longer
I can taste my spirit hunger
God please help me get home

Lord though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death
I’m not scared cause You’re holding my breath
I only fear that I don’t have enough time left
To tell the world that there’s no time left, Lord please

I’ve come to terms that I’m burning both sides of the rope
And I’m hoping that self-control would kick in before I’m choking off
The sin that be destroying every fiber I got
I need the Lord in every way I’ll never make it I’m not
Going back to the way I was before Christ in my life
I couldn’t do it I would lose it there’s no point to the fight
And I’m writing this song, for the people who don’t belong
I pray away the pain you feel from all the things that went wrong
Inside a life that’s filled with anger and disappointment
Cause daddy treated you weaker than all of the other kids
It’s annoying and I feel for all of you who wanna give up
You feel stuck I feel the same way Lord help us stay up
You couldn’t pay me to abandon the idea of true hope
That I could make it through this life into a place where there’s no crying
I’m dying to find You with open arms when I go
Knowing You love me and You waiting to give rest to my soul

Lord I don't know what I'm struggling for
There’s got to be more
Than this life I know
But still I’m here fighting to never give up
I find strength in Your love
And You will see me through

....
i should've just bolded the whole damned thing i think..
oh god...bring me back to the place and time where I didn't have to worry about anything at all..
don't wanna be alone...
wonder how things will be like if i really do make that choice..that step..
some may call it the leap of faith..(no..not my sister's blog..but u can go check it out..its updated..finally..)
some may call it foolishness..
as for me, i don't know what i'll call it..
should i just close my eyes and jump??
i just hope people are less judgmental..
and i do hope that dreams do come true...
some day...
some day......

Sunday, December 30, 2007

Sun, 30 Dec 2007 17:02:08 GMT

went to malacca with my hubs on sat..
our 3 mths hols cmin to an end and was thinkin this 3 mths nvr really got to go for a hol
so planned this mini 1 day trip lor.altho its not the ori plan...
original plan was to go penang..
but too last min and not enuf time de..
so got to make do with this trip first..hehe..
started our journey ard 1030.was suppose to leave at 8 but slept late the nite b4 cos gt too carried away playing mahjong.
yesh!i finally learned how to play.lol.pretty addictive leh...
so anyways,we arrived ayer keroh bout 1 like that..first stop was at the butterfly park.
cos i saw the sign board mar..so dearie asked wanna go der first anot..
so yeah..a stupid-scary-donkey thing happened der..
u see..babes was feeding the monkey den after tat he asked me to feed say wanna take pic of me feeding..
i keep saying dowan but he insisted..
so oklor..i tried to be sporting lor..haha..
so fine..feed him the first time was alright..but the bf say dint manage to snap..like wth??!=.=
so nvm..feed 2nd time..and this time..!!!! omg man!! the stupid cheeky monkey reached out and instead of taking the kuaci,he grabbed my wrist!!wa..seriously..i was damn shocked and scared...
but waddayouknow..he say..aiyoh..feed again lar..too fast u run away i dint manage to take again..
this time i keep saying dowan lar..the monkey very cheeky sure grab again wan..monkeys are cheeky fella's!!
but he said wont..really wont..faster go..so fine lar..i went again..and guess what?!!it happened again!!!
and baby said after tat he saw the monkey laughing to himself..
as in showing his cheeky teeth..wth man..!no more after tat!!donkey ass bf can laugh at me somemore..
but after tat i saw the pics..actually can stil see abit of my face wan..just not that clear..yeesh..
so nyways,after leaving the 'butterfly park/mini zoo' we masuk into malacca town and since it was lunch time we went try the famosa chicken rice ball since ppl always fuss about how u must eat it wen ur der..
turns out, its nth special or wat..
dats what we thought lar..
den since we dint have much time left..
you see..i've got a dinner with my relatives at 7smth so we had to leave malacca early lor..
so had to rush abit..actually quite alot..
walked around the shops and bought a cowboy hat for convey..his bday party was on the same nite as well..
den rushed ourselves to find the famous cendol at jonker street..
wanted to go for sate celup also..
but not enuf time..
had to go home liao..damn potong..
that sort of sums up our trip to malacca..yes..a short one i know..
nvrtheless it was meaningful...
pics of the trip and convey's bday party below...
more of it are up on my facebook..
enjoy!

25 more km to ayer keroh and another 32km to malacca..

turning out from ayer keroh toll

no wonder they're called 'lovebirds'

translation: butterfly park malacca

stupid monkey

thats my hands..first shot..

2nd/3rd shot..stupid-cheeky-ugly-ass monkey

owl..hoot hoot..

entering malacca town..

famosa chicken rice ball

the long journey in search of cendol..dint manage to try the durian cendol also..

finally we saw the stall..

i have my shades and you dont..

slurping away..

cutting the real cake (spot the cream on his hair..)

y ur eyes sud bigger den mine?lol..

a game of roulette..?

jeff emo..

on tipsy mode..

the source..after this dey change to JD den wanted to open swing..but ppl were pretty tipsy ade..

bday boy

kong-ed

and out...

dum di dum..

Thu, 27 Dec 2007 16:22:34 GMT

the year is coming to an end..
b'day came and gone so soon.
it was a memorable one i would say.
started off with sis organizing a pre-birthday dinner for me at yuen's steamboat with the fam & je since she wont be around on the day itself.
my first time eating a baskin robbins cake and i would say it was great!
melt too fast tho..
thank you sista and baby for putting in the effort.
birthday itself was celebrated with je and ended with us cooking a meal for my parents and us.=.=
christmas this year didnt seem much of a christmas to me.yeah.i know.so sad.how can i not enjoy it rite?!
somehow i dont know what happened to my christmas mood.
nyways,happy belated birthday jesus!
i went for youth camp too.this year i only went for half camp.still waiting for pics from jeff.hmm..
baby bought me 'oo kuai' (turtle/tortoise?)as a chirstmas present.at first he bought 1..but we somehow felt that dood look so lonely so went buy another one.turns out i have a girl and a guy now.asked the shopkeeper to check for us.
other new thing that i have is a digi cam!not just any digi cam but my very FIRST own digi cam!LOL.yeah.i know.so outdated rite?wat to do?poor mar..
my own birthday pressie to myself.hehe..
ok.nth much to update de.
special thanks to: baby je, marco kor, catherine bestie, sister, dan, mumsie and dadsie, aaron, kum, doreen, raymond, henry goh,yi jiang, chung seng, thee khye, shu qing, lee hendry, convey, yi yuen, junior, chui yee, yen sun, daniel, aku (uncle), grace leong, jason leong, aunty irene, vivien che che, christopher chin, jean loo, audrey soo, jaclyn, soo jin, wai yee, sheng mae, esther goh, chung en, david lee, hooi eng, ben tay, lee san and joshua benjamin for the birthday wishes. appreciate it alot. sorry if i missed out anyone's name...hehe..forgive me.*edited*

front view

side view of the box

darling's ipod and mine..got it during our campover at courts megastore for 12 hrs

can u spot my two oo kuai's?

*cheers**keeping fingers crossed for my malacca trip with the cutie this sat*

apple for an ipod nano

Fri, 21 Dec 2007 07:39:50 GMT

on the 19th december (thursday) a group of around 26 of us went camping.
where?you might ask..
well..it wasn't a fancy camping..
it was outside courts mammoth at mutiara damansara
yeaps!right outside.
and for wat u may ask..
read the title above..
pretty much explains it..
we started camping around 11smth..12 like tat..
all the way till 12 noon the next day..
you see...courts mammoth was having their grand opening
and their giving out 100 ipods to the first 100 ppl with an apple (the fruit)
we were the first group to be der..but got overtaken by another group of about 6-8 ppl who went in the line first..
oh..wells..we're still the first few so no complains.lol.
it sure was a super long wait..but i guess we all agreed that it was worthwhile when we came out with an ipod each.:)
you can read more about it over here..can also see my boi's face on the 7th pic.lol.
on a different note..i just received a call from some production to be in a drama tmr with carmen soo tmr..
too bad i cant make it..its in lim kok wing cyberjaya and i dont really know that area plus its so far..
hahah..
plus..when i declined the offer,i dint know who carmen soo was..
just felt that her name sounds familiar..
went and googled her name up only to find that she's one of those famous models..
dang..wasted the chance...
hahaha..not that i have fetish on girls or what mind you..

happy holidays and blessed christmas to all!

church wedding

Sat, 03 Nov 2007 10:40:15 GMT

okay...put the carvings business aside, let's get into a better; more joyful and peaceful topic..
as the title says it...a church wedding..yippee!
attended aaron tan and yip wei's wedding at life chapel this morning.love love love attending church weddings cos i think its really really meaningful..and so beautifully done..
two person become one. i thought it to be really meaningful when they lighted two out of three candles signifying their individual self and den each one taking the lighted candle to light the candle in the middle signifying that they are now joined as one.no more living an individual life but a life as a married couple..
and as usual, ppl always get excited at the part where 'you may now kiss the bride' *applause applause*
oh my..i'm talking as if i very 'han ka' like tat..hahah!! i mean..isn't tat every girl's dream? der's nth wrong to that wert rite?lol.but of course got to build my career first also lar..must not depend too much on husband's money.hehe.nyway,enough with words,on to the pictures...btw, new pics (which is not with me currently) and photoshopped pics (by my sis cos it was her hp) , and extra pics which are not posted here will be uploaded to facebook later on..click here..so u can check it out as well..

mememe

sis and her sleepy eyes..sleep late every nite somemore lar!tsk tsk tsk

nicenice!

two really close frends..

and two best friends..

red is the new black!lol..and no..it wasnt planned..

ERIC cheong the best man

marshies and strawberries with the ever famous choc fountain

jeannie+++raymondo

yeap..the popular guy..

need i say more? *haha..kidding lar..he's not THAT popular we just like taking pics.lol*

baby nate..doesnt he look like baby zachary??*pinch cheeks*..

best friends and close friends again..

the three cheah sisters

and the two yu sisters

hooi eng

eric,melanie,hooi eng

adeline

charissa

sis and my hair..thank you jeannie cheah!

anyone else getting married soon?LOL..

carvings...

Mon, 29 Oct 2007 18:22:18 GMT

recently heard about this carving thing from the boy which sounds pretty gross..not just pretty, but super gross!was bored so decided to do some surfing and digging up on what the fuss is all about..or perhaps i'm just outdated?perhaps you guys already knew about these long long time ago?lol.anyways, what carvings am i talking about?well you know tattoos?it seems these days people do carvings instead of tattoos.below are pictures of the process. and a link to more of their so-called 'art work'. see and judge for yourself..painful??is it the right thing to do..??would you even do it in the first place?before you scroll down though, be warned that some of the pictures may be a little disturbing..

link to the website: http://www.scarwars.org

Wednesday, September 26, 2007

Wed, 26 Sep 2007 11:22:50 GMT

a short break-'commercial' for more pics of aus..*delayed*

the whispering wall

jessica,jeannie,joycelin,melanie,me,christine

*just the ladies*

a new cheerleading formation...?lolz..

poser sial

notice that christine is being carried?haha..

my playground..

up next are pics which was spoilt by me cos i cant stop laughing and taking off at diff times..typical me..?haha

take one

take two..*this pic wasnt totally my fault as u can see..*

take three *y are the rest just warming up and im already all warmed up?lol

last shot as we were all exhausted from jumping...this time..the blame's on my sis so dont put the blame on me..hehe..

...sisterhood..

family missing daddy dearest..

dint u know?we graduated too!!

hats off to you sista!

nah...long way more for us..more for joycelin tho..hahah..we were just fooling around with our sister's robes..

Friday, September 14, 2007

Fri, 14 Sep 2007 15:32:30 GMT

parents' 24th anniversary + mum's bday

*edited just for tiffany*

on the 10th we celeberated mummy and daddy's anniversary and yday (13th) we celebrated mummy's bday.next up we'll be celebrating de father's (my dad la) bday on the 20th..all so close to each other..september is such a busy busy mth..with so many ppls bdays..ppl like jeannie cheah (comin soon), bryan lim (over ade so can ignore),tiffany(der u go gurl), trixie (whom i forgot to wish..oh no..so dead by her..sorry if ur reading tis!), and also coming up is ben tay's. anyone i missed out on...??*not that i'll have money to buy pressies for all of u lar..haha..but a wish from me will be sufficient..?no..?hehe. SO nyways, we celebrated our parents' anniversary at food foundry. we being my sis , je and i..AND of cos my parents'*main stars* lar.. i made my parents' a collage using pics from their last year's anniversary which we celebrated in double fortune (i think that's the name) inserting a card along with it. i sms-ed both my parents earlier asking them to send me smth nice dey wud like to say to one another..and i wrote them down inside the card.

u see those scribblings on it?well..its actually a short story-like thingy which i wrote.ahah..! it reads..
in de beginning..
both were shy..
den dey started warming up to each other..
comes de proposal & marriage..
along came 2 beautiful girls..
one looking like her mother..the other looking like her father *notice the pic of my sis and i?im next to my mum and she's next to my dad.haha*
thus,formed the ONE BIG HAPPY FAMILY...
-the end-

main stars of the nite

*dad and his fake smile..*

the 'yu' family..not yours..mine..(if u get the joke..lolz..)

*sis ordered this*

*je and i shared this*

*dad's*

*mum's*

*cake shared by sis, dan, je and i*

*bcos my parents' likes fruit cake*

*my dad tries so hard to smile for the camera..he dont norm smile you see..ahaha*

*cutting cake- my mum dont look wer she cut..she just likes posing for the camera..lolz..jk..*

*blow*one candle each*

*wine we brought back from aus*

next up..we have my mum's bday which we celebrated at decanter in seksyen 17. saw a high school mate working there..eng siang..heard he's the manager there..?noot bad. nyways, this time we missed je.he wasnt feeling well so left him at my place to rest.

*awww..*

*inside the golden box lies the present my dad gave to my mum*

*see what i mean with my dad and his 'smiles'? lolz!*

*sis and i*

*sis and mum*

*grilled chicken with mushroom sauce-mum's*

*grilled mackerel-sis*

*tenderloin steak-dad's*

*lamb chop-mine*

*kilkenny*..really nice and pricey too..